not giveing in

im not going to die
im not giveing in to hate
im going to love
im not leting any one let me down
im here for any one
im all was the lost one
im all was there for u
im the small light in every one hearts
im the one u can count on
im not giveing in to depression
im faceing my demons
i want u to be there for me when im down
and now i want u to know who i am
u where there for me when i was sad
ur songs made me understand how i felt
when i was sad mad or  evenn lost u gave me time to understand
your songs had a lot of diffrent storys a bout uand me  touching both are  heart
my life not esey to a lot of us some of us want to go home but im here some times i wish some one would let me cry a bout things if i cant let it out it bad but ur here for me and i love u for it

where the love

where did the love go to im so sad that i made a promis and i keep it!!!! none of u have made promis to  me u all lie to me and im over it im done with all the crap and lies and im done with ur lies and now it ur falt to lose me as a friend im sorry for what u did to me so it  a lost in life for u if i did die it would not be ur falt for saveing u or trying to stop some one and ur not there it so sad to know some one not there for u or what is it there no love

standing in a bad storm

i don't know if it seems sad that im here and u made the promise to be there for me and then let me down why am i a lone when u made me happy u never told me to die  now im scared u left every one go and then the band left u for what it worth and it not like that in my life there 3 roads and im not going to let any one brake me or any one and now i cry because u never card a  bout ur fans or even me why did i like ur music i feel like a kid hit by a car and lots of blood on the floor i never ask u to do any thing for me but u have lied to me and ur fans i could be there for u but u never talk to me and i don't like it at all i never wanted to lose u as a friend in a band but i did the rain started to drip of sad ness of crying that i do i have never for gave u or any one in ur band to let me down the worse u told me u cared for me and never let me go and u did and u never talk to me or said we are sorry for what we did to u or ur friends and u never cared so this is good bye for good all the bands who lie to me or let me down when i need u all or even friends u all made my life happy but the bad storm has came back im not happy im relly mad it make me sad to know u or ur band and im sad to know why u did it i never ask u because u let me be me and then screw me over bye for good i thought u where there for me but im wrong for being a girl who has mield retardation and it not esey for me to be happy

hevan

my life is not esey im me but im not you so back off i never felt happy in my life until my girl says did u know when u die ur normal and being u the u that not mailed retarded and u will be hot  heaven

you have to think about your life in larger perspective... People love you and care about you and invest time and emotions into you. If you give up on your life then your leaving them behind. Everyone in this world is important. Because everyone in life has friends and family that they mean the world to u and them

we all need loveand stop the hate

i had a friend die last week went to her funeral and it keep me sad i did not want to stop crying it was so sad i did not know what to say or do for the family it seams sad to lose some one close to ur heart and it not cool when some one gone and u wish u had time with them and now i have a lot to tell her a bout life and helping out i never know why we all hate each other or why we need some one to tell us how to be im mad that we all have no one being there for us  but i know she need a friend in the after life im tired of every church fighting it not cool we all in life is love for one a no there help each other and some one need love showed them help love hope and encourage them to be happy in life dont let any one down we all need love we all need some one to stand for or believe in it sad when every one is family and then every one for gets what they stand for sorry if this seems sad but it is im sad knowing a lot of friends have for got a bout me im glad im not dead i thought of killing my self when i was younger be glad im a live and not dead and i have friends like u all
i dont know why it rains but it dose it been raining on and off for pass 3 days on and off im so lost for words we all need every one in life if not why we here for then we all have fun or sadness no one need
to tell me to be nice ur not me ur not in my shoes so back off  bitch cry me a river and float on it and there is nothing i could do but to be me and now it ur turn to be nice and not being mean it sad to feel this way
cant u even know who u are or not this time please love one a no there and dont lose any one at all but now it done u lost me and ur a big hater u lost me u talk crap all the time when will the hate get over ur self and u think ur cool not true and u dam know well im talking a bout ur friends and every one u knows a bout my life and u dont so dont tell me be some one ealts i hate how people lie a bout who they are and what they do or say u have no life with me and telling me to be nice ill cut u up and let u know how i am dont u dare get in the middle of this and being this  conversation it none of ur business to tell me how to act loser Son of a botch im standing my ground if u dont like me screw u dont know what iv gone threw
TO ALL THE HATERS HATE ON ME BUT SOON CARMA GOING TO BITE U IN THE BUTT
to all who love me saports me and not doing any thing to be mean love u all

ps to every one hates it ur lost and ur not me so cry me a dam put a bridge on it and walk on it

love dose not cost a thing but puer love is not sex it in ur sole and ur heart

 this is the song it means more to me then any one knows

 Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day


i know this dose not mean a lot to other friends or my close band friends but the thing is we all need this if u love some one and there dieing then support them and not let them down

this is it the big one

there is a lot to tell u all a bout me.and how i feel a bout music some songs made me move on when and songs make me cry when im down or crying becuse i know what they go threw i miss my close band friends when it get heard a lot of the bands to talk to me when im sad i owe u all a hugs and a thanks for saveing my life one of my dreams was so sad i was like where is the friends when ur a lone in life but in a house there was a light a light that way crazy it was bloody read ment that my sadness was mad and the light broke my hand was cut and a friend saved my life thanks for being so close to me i owe u the most love i know that u care but my blood is not red it blue it like a flame that burns in deep where my heart has a big deep cute but im healing it slowe thowe i dont want to fix it until a brake the briks off of the depression it a big wall no one has help me out can any one hear u in a dream that u wish some one run to u and pull u out of the darkness but i know that all of u love me and knowing this blog is sad but it going to let go of sad stuff out iv been bottling up in my life is not esey i love scremo music the most and it has been more esey for me to let every one know how it is my life is hard it like a bad dreams and good ones but there more then u know i was born in safford/greenly and im happy to let u know how my days are good or bad and it even more a bout me i am who i am love me hate me but i am for giveing any one who hates me beuse i know that god would do the same if any one see me cry let me cry dont tell me to stop crying becuse it not fair to be all bottel up let me go and cry wiht out friends or music i would not be here i would be in a diffrent place and a diffrent life and im happy to say i love bands in a way that they dont even know one of my frieds all was say ur not a lone but i am some times to see what i ahve done for other friends in my life i think it far to say that my dreams some times get sad and scary some are so cool or even love some are way bloody or just me under a tree i found out that the white tree is growing becuse all friends n my face book is there for me and bands i want to say im here for u i hope some bands email me or read my blog or any one in safford thacher or pima i nhave friends in la like vampiers every where derek woods or bvb or othr bands that has made a diffrence in ly life i owe u all love and saport i dont care if any one thinksthat Mormons dont leson to hard music it get me threw the worst days ps i hope this one dose not confuse any one

so i had an idea to meet a new friends on face book im so happy to have friends from a round the world and i don't feel a lone but i still do in my own way and it not ur fault that i have to deal with some sad ness in life i hope soo we get to see each other in life sorry i was not there for u i should been there when u where sad i was wrong a lot of times i was not there to save ur life and i should of this time I'm not going to stand a lone and it been few years i miss my dog i really do not know how it will take me to say this but i love a band who willing to love me for who i am and not how i look it hard wright now i found out some thing a out a band i use to lesson to i all was wonder why brake up and then going to a nother bands do i only know few of friends in a band who all was says this no matter how far u are I'm here in ur heart or in ur heart i miss them to much i never had a boy friend in a band but now im single i made a promise to my self if some one loves me then ill love them even more im a broken heart kid i love falling in love, but being in love hurts i have the best friends in the world i say whats on my mind in me for who i am cant u see that breaking me down and drowning me is the worst u can do to me im not giving in and now im done with every thing but if u read this u know that im not going to be a lone and let u brake me down any more knowing how big of a Lie u are and stabbing me

i had a friend who has Cancer and it sad because i wish u where there to say ur last good bye it hurt me the most is not being there and i wish i had a chance to say a lot to u be for u ur flight to haven and i wish i had said something to u be for u die or kill ur self it not fair that im here and ur not i cant even try to explain every thing i have dreams a bout u why cant u leave me a lone did i do something wrong or did u need me the most or it just time to move on who ever is a live need to let me cry it not good to let it in and i herd a nother thing to if u where pregnant and u had an abortion not cool at all to let u know that way bad but if it was for a doctors reason then i can understand but if it was not for that reason then i wont for give you at all not good i had a friend who told me she was going to do it but it ur kids life that called murder and im not happy that people kill other people in life i mean who u kill might have kids or a wife and that so bad idea i have lost to many friends to death why and it not a fun at all to be in the army and u have to kill why i mad as heck at certain people who bioch a bout me u don't know me so back off it not fun to have friends who say oh we are friends then they back stab me u lieing son of a gun of a friend who talk crap a bout me and it u turn to tell me why or what i did to u ur not a good friend to lie to my face ur a mean loser but i can help out IF U STOP BULLING THE CRAP OUT OF ME AND NOT BEING A SON OF A GUN eater and u dont love me get marred and leave me the hello mercy a lone ur not my b/f and u dont care u did not even invite me to ur wedding bull crap ur not so close to me any more did u think i know ur loser g/f ur wife is mad at me for nothing i did she did not want me to go so it ur fault u did not ask me to marry u stupid guys dam it

the most fun i ever had in life s my friends in bands i have been talking to is few different ones the first one is The Broken Beauties and others who i want to see i never meat them in real life i hope that we get to know each other and bands i know is fun to hang help out but I'm mad at friends who make promises and brake them I'm so gawd and now I'm doing more venting on how i feel I'm an out cast no one even knows how it feels to be a lone and sad and it not good and i leson to bands for help when it worse I'm so mad at bands being mean and not saporting any thing or any one my first brake up was few years a go i had a boy friend for 10 years yep it the dead truth and I'm glad to be free and be me and now this is even crazy first song i heard was No doubt don't speak it made me move on and my fave vampire band is vampires every where they are so cool and nice black veil brides made my life move one fats run a way was the most sad song iv ever heard be for there eyes is a good one confide and some other ones and my fave vampire movie is lost boys not twilight and any how it was a boring day at my house got few cool calls shout out to Friends who call me when I'm sad i figer out that love is not sex it what in Ur heart and it hurt to be heart broken and no one want to be here when I'm sad why the heck am i all was the one sad and a lone when other friends can reach out to me or in my life and then not let go and now it Ur turn to figer it out how my life go on and if u want to know why i don't vent until it get bad then there will be a bigger blog i all was say love hope and dream big if u don't then who can help in Ur life and I'm here when u need me and I'm here to let u vent to me so i can help out don't look down any more just because I'm meld retarded dose not mean that we all have a life and it hard sad songs make me be who i am i don't know if any one knows this but I'm a small flower and every one is bigger then me i have low sealf of steam and ill let u know waht ealts u need to know if any one want to know a bout me ask ? a bout me or any thing if ur conseran

let me know

love christopher lynne dobbs aka dobbster or christie

so there a band that i talk to a lot and i do love music and there a lot of names but the one new band sink or swim there new to me and i want to know them more!!!!!!and other bands are crazy fun or just nice I'm only a hugger no hi 5 or hand shakes or even hand hugs please respect me and let me hug u or any thing but love from hugs to any one or bands but now I'm willing to tell this to u all i have hug 54,456 friends in pass 24 years and i have count all of them even bands hugs when I'm sad i do need a hug and not a hand hugs I'm me and I'm so happy to be here blogging a bout a lot if any of u come to safford this would be at my friends house i hope this works peace to all who enter welcome from my heart enjoy your self within god bless as you depart in my blogs so i hope u all have fun and don't for get god love all of us a round the world not matter if u have tattoos piercings or any thing I'm here to support u when Ur sad or when Ur mad or lost i know how it is to be a lone in life where no one reaching out and pulling u out of sadness i all was wonder dose any band love me or am i a lone a gen i know some bands don't know me but I'm Christopher Lynne Dobbs in safford I'm all was wonder if we meat or Ur band would u say u loved me and hold me when i cry or would u not even want to know me I'm so sad now losing a friend but I'm getting to know who i am if u hate me i for give you if i hurt u I'm sorry 2 wrongs don't make a wright 2 wrights dose not make a wrong and all this world is love stop the hate in this world we all are diffrent in are own way some day we will see him a gen and i hope love will be in are hearts not hate i hate war and i miss my army friends and other ones in bands that i want to say thanks for saving my life if it was not for music i would be dead and it not good thing I'm the only one who want love but I'm heart broken and hurt way to much my heart is tender and it not good for me or any one in my life to lose me

life is not esey like other pepole say becuse u dont know me u dont know what it like to be some one who sad or mad or feel like an out cast kid and i dont think it fair to any one to be lonly and feel like they dont belong when they do and i hate that the most i feel like no one want me to be sad but i am but now i have to give u all the truth knowing who i am is not esey i feel like a book that no one dust off and let me die slowley and not careing a bout me how i feel is going to be sad or just way it going to hurt and now im 25 now almost 26 in aug i want to challeng some one to hug some one ealts no hand shakes and no mean talking eather and i hope some band will say hi to me on my face book for once and not letting me down i hate how bands do that and not careing for there fans and if a band hate me say it to my face becuse i want to know what i did to u or ur band im sorry but that hard for me to say it if u dont hate me plese tell me no band says how i help them out or any thing but it hurts to know ur a lone in life and im here for any one no one has reach out to me yet how am i sapose to be a friend and no one says any thing i dont know what im sapose to do to in life to mke any one see me or who i am in side of me i love bvb and miw plese stop the figting of bands and crap u all talk a bout them im a women who feels lonly some of the dreams i have seen good in a lot of them few of them kinda creeps me out but i need to know sad ones make me lonley if im not a live what would happen





A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

and all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in, to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

when hope begins to fade...



A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



These times in life we learn to try, with one intention

Of learning how and when we'll die, but we cant listen

I wish to god I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance

Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm



So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed

Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted

You aren't alone just know that I, cant save our hearts tonight



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm

And face today

You're not alone



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm

And face today

You're not alone

there is a lot of songs that would make me cry and help me out the most and when i down i do sing the songs to make me feel like im not a lone but i am Waking up your neighbors downstairs

I've been inside your bedroom a thousand years

And as you tie me to the bed for good I say

that I want you in the most unromantic ways



Louisiana, you're torturing me with a beautiful face

Ana come on, I thought we had a damn good thing (damn good thing)

A penny in the couch and a diamond ring



So baby stay away from my friends

Because I need them to carry me when it's over

I'll count back from ten and you can listen to

glass hearts shattering



I don't know how you got into me

Down my throat and made a home in my veins

They used to be the rivers that would take us away

But now you only call me every Christmas and my birthday

I still can't believe how you look next to me

Just like a strip club bedroom scene



Baby stay away from my friends

Because I need them to carry me when it's over

I'll count back from ten

And you can listen to

something that you've never heard before (never heard before)



But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night

Scaring the thought of kissing razors

This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in

Stay away

Oh no

Just stay away from my friends.

I was blind, didn't know you hurt so bad

I saw inside, when everybody said I'm mad and

Ran away, never to be seen again

I found a friend, when all you need is just a friend

and all you need is a friend



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



I was lost, time was moving by so fast

Felt alone cause I was living in the past and

I ran to you, hoping we could make amends

Cast away, when all I needed was a friend



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



Would you take me by the hand?

I'm gonna take you by the hand (hand)

Would you take me by the hand?

Yeah



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



We can start with today

We can start with today

We can start with today

love u guys and the bandsNoone knows how you feel

Noone there you'd like to see

The day was dark and full of pain

You write help with your own blood

'Cause hope is all you've got

You open up you eyes

But nothings changed



I don't want to cause you trouble

Don't wanna stay too long

I just came here to say to you



Turn around, I am here

If you want it's me you'll see

Doesn't count, far or near

I can hold you when you reach for me



Your life is meaningless

Your diary full of trash

It's so hard to get along with empty hands

You're looking for the rainbow

But it died not long ago

It tried to shine just for you

Until the end



I don't want to cause you trouble

Don't wanna stay too long

I just came here to say to you

I am by your side

Just for a little while



Turn around, I am here

If you want it's me you'll see

Doesn't count, far or near

I can hold you when you reach for me



If the world makes you confused

And your senses you seem to lose

If the storm doesn't want to diffuse

And you just don't know what to do

Look around, I am here

Doesn't count far or near



I am by your side

Just for a little while



Turn around

Turn around, I am here

Turn around

Doesn't count, far or near

Turn around

If you want it's me you'll see

Turn around

I can hold you when you reach for me

Turn around, I am here

Doesn't count, far or near



I am by your side

Just for a little while

We'll make it if we try



ever since you've gone

everything has felt so wrong

i'll never be the same

without you here



staring at the sun

eventually i'll come undone

it's hard to make it through a day

without you here



you'll never know i'm falling to peices

you'll never know how desperate i've become



everything i see

reminds me how it used to be

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my lungs refuse to breathe the air

without you here



and if you heard this song

could it bring you back where you belong

cause i can't even fall asleep

without you here



you'll never know i'm falling to peices

you'll never know how desperate i've become

how desperate i've become



Turn the channel on the TV

Another boy shot tonight

I can't believe what I am seeing

A body bag, a mother cries



It seems like this is never ending

I've had enough, so I decide

The time has come for me to face it

I can't refuse the war inside



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



I don't know if I can hide it

I know the truth, it's only lies

The president will deny it

The body count a steady rise



In my head there is a riot

To change the world, no one dies

The time has come for us to fight it

We can't refuse the war inside

Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



I know that you can change the future

I know that we can make it happen

In my head there is a riot

And I don't think that I can fight it



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



We have had enough

We have had enough

We have had enough









this is why my life is not esey

on a lonely road part 2

Do you know that i love you? I probably already told you, but im going to keep saying it. There are no lies in this world, not one bit. Your smile keeps me alive- its is one more reason to keep fighting. I would give you my soul for comfort even if it leaves me dark and cold. And when i hold you close, i can feel your heart beat fast, and i think to myself, i have found someone at last♥ my heart longs for you my sould dies for youmy eyes cry for youmy EMPTY arms reach out for youThere are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things that we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we don't wanna live without but have to let go♥the weirdest thing happened the other morning..... i woke up with tears in my eyes.... and one rolling down my cheek....and i knew i must have been dreaming of you♥
that how i relly feel

Don't know if I could ever be Without you
'Cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause you're the apple to my pie
...You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my highThere comes a time when you stop dealing with other peoples bullshit, drama and problems - When you stop trying to change others and work on changing yourself, your world changes for the better.

Flip the off switch to your kind hearts for a second, and focus on YOU.

You'd be surprised.
And you're the one I wanna marry♥
These words are burning inside of me
spent years in liquid harmony
this dream is who I want to be
I grow from those who hate meor love me im sad now it done im gone im not there for u left me out bioch i hate u and ur friends

new friends

so i had an idea to meet a new friends on face book im so happy to have friends from a round the world and i don't feel a lone but i still do in my own way and it not ur fault that i have to deal with some sad ness in life i hope soo we get to see each other in life sorry i was not there for u i should been there when u where sad i was wrong a lot of times i was not there to save ur life and i should of  this time I'm not going to stand a lone and it been few years i miss my dog i really do not know how it will take me to say this but i love a band who willing to love me for who i am and not how i look  it hard wright now i found out some thing a out a band i use to lesson to i all was wonder why brake up and then   going to a nother bands do i only know few  of friends in a band who all was says this no matter how far u are I'm here in ur heart or in ur heart i miss them to much i never had a boy friend in a band but now im single i made a promise to my self if some one loves me then ill love them even more im a broken heart kid i love falling in love, but being in love hurts i have the best friends in the world i say whats on my mind in me for who i am cant u see that breaking me down and drowning me is the worst u can do to me im not giving in and now im done with every thing but if u read this u know that im not going to be a lone and let u brake me down any more knowing how big of a Lie u are and stabbing me

scard out of my brains

i had a friend who has Cancer and it sad because i wish u where there to say ur last good bye it hurt me the most is not being there and i wish i had a chance to say a lot to u be for u ur flight to haven and i wish i had said something to u be for u die or kill ur self it not fair that  im here and ur not i cant even try to explain every thing i have dreams a bout u why cant u leave me a lone did i do something wrong or did u need me the most or it just time to move on who ever is a live need to let me cry it not good to let it in and i herd a nother thing to if u where pregnant and u had an abortion not cool at all to let u know that way bad but if it was for a doctors reason then i can understand but if it was not for that reason then i wont for give you at all not good i had a friend who told me she was going to do it but it ur kids life that called murder and im not happy that people kill other people in life i mean who u kill might have kids or a wife and that so bad idea i have lost to many friends to death why and it not a fun at all to be in the army and u have to kill why i mad as heck  at certain people who bioch a bout me u don't know me so back off it not fun to have friends who say oh we are friends then they back stab me u lieing son of a gun of a friend who talk crap a bout me and it u turn to tell me why or what i did to u ur not a good friend to lie to my face ur a mean loser but i can help out IF U STOP BULLING THE CRAP OUT OF ME AND NOT BEING A SON OF A GUN eater and u dont love me get marred and leave me the hello mercy  a lone ur not my b/f and u dont care u did not even invite me to ur wedding bull crap ur not so close to me any more did u think i know ur loser g/f ur wife is mad at me for nothing i did she did not want me to go so it ur fault u did not ask me to marry u stupid guys dam it

im lost

OK now i have a lot to say but im so mad but i don't know what to do or say but u all need to back off of me and it not cool that u say i cant do it but i am i hate all of u all for jugging over what im doing im lds and a christian and it not good to tell me that i cant have friends in diffrent places or in bands or any one knows me get the h a way from me and let me live the life i want im so lost for word for some one being bad mean not good im so stress out because of u and ur stupid friends don't like me the way u act make me smile and laugh bad idea to make some one sad and not caring a bout what they do in life or me in life it not esey to be sad ans i am so now i get to say this i hate bad guys i want a guy to love me for who i am not because im small girl im almost tall and im not a fraid to tell some one how i fell and if u hate me then lose me for what i did so cry me a big dam river and dont look at me like im stuped or dum im a real life girl im not dam 12 im 25 in august ill be 26 im so dang sad that i ahve lost a lot of friends in life to be happy it not esey for me or any one close to my heart im so mad that u left out me out in ur life how couldu never ask me if i was going to be there for u and then left me out in lifeand not good to know who i am and not knowing that im a live if im not here for a month or a week plese worry  and it so hard for me to deal wiht every thing i need time off

sorry but ur not cool with me at all to tell me how im sapose to be

I'm so tierd of every one say dont be sad be happy I'm telling u know I'm a lowed to be sad when things go wrong and it not good that i have to be happy and i need to deal with it by my self so let me tell u if u dont let me cry it going to be bad idea to ask me how i feel I'm trying to let a lot out how dare u say i cant let my sad ness out that not good i was crying because of things and friends who lie to me and u say dont have a pity cry that way low and not cool would u like to see me dead or a live and it not cool that u did what u did then asking me if I'm ok I'm killing a big wall and ur not there to see how stress full it is to let go of things in life it so dam stupid that u think it was me it not it was u and it dosent matter to me now because u need to move one if im not on my face book or blogging for a month means bad news or im getting other things to do and none of it concerns to u that im done with this crap im a so mad at u know that u told a lie a bout me asking if i was pregnant i was not i hate girls and guys who ask things and i dont give a heck who u are but being mean and saying stuff not true dang it and ur not a good friend im mad that u had to ask and act like a little mean girl and i dont like thatu siad it and act fake as a girl not cool thought u could bring me down no u cant becuse u lost me and it over get marred and get out of my life for good im so mad i wanted to tell u that if u did love me and then tell me u made amastake not good to let me know after u did it and know i know who u are and not good to let me down drowning in sadness for life

scard to be a lone

every day and night i had dreams a bout my death not like normal death like dieing in a friends arms and every time i see it i know soon it will happen and no one going to stop it i have so much to do for every one ealts when is it my trun to get marred or even have kids and i cant do that no one loves me even vampiers have left me now why did this happen to me i hate that im lonley and no one want to help me out and now im lost for  words or even hugs or even feelings every things even in my dreams DOSE ANY ONE LOVE ME do i have to walk a lone i hope not do i feel loved no do i feel like no one knows how it feels to be called a out cast kid yes i do i know that there a lot of things to do for who u are and what u do i life for me it harder then u know i feel like no one want to know me at all i feel like it then u know this is me faceing the music and ur not here to see it im all was crying i dont care if u want to know or not but im here in thos world and it get way to lonley and im here to say ur not a lone but u have for got me and it sad for the last time i blog it was a lonley road u did not come to look for me or love me and tell me to move on ur not a good friend u hit me like a rain storm u did not say i want u to be happy and move on u did not say hey christie here my hand and ull never have to be sad why did i go threw this and god i love u so much u been there for me when im sad down broken and dont feel loved by any one and u all ways there when im sad i never told any one but it time to say it who going to be there for me if i need it im aking im not demanding it i want to know some of u had said ill be there for u and umm not true and im mad that u left me on a road that u where there and know ur not here why is it me loseing every thing every one and even my vampier friends to are u kidding me and know i feel like no one here it done over im going to brake walls and i did and now u know if u brake a promis then u brake a hug and my heart and u never cared dont u know im almost 26 and if i was marred every one in the world would come and bands to im lost to say this but dont make me sad come to me ask me if im ok if im not let me cry on u and no one has offer that to me until know im so mad at any one who make fun of kids who have disabilitys and it not good to know that i had a friend who killed him self becuse of it  good time to say it love happyness hope and dont look down

lost for words

so every one been asking me to blog every week u just got to be kidding me I'm barely starting and it going to get even crazier now I'm sad and I'm lost for words i know how to say this but i don't know what to do but u all need to for give Ur self be for u say sorry to any one elates it the way to be happy and learning it not esey and i hate the fact that no one willing to say I'm sorry for letting u down but u all have done that to me or some one and breaking a promise to me is way big and being mean rude and jugging me it not the way to be or who u are i don't know u i don't think it fair that u would talk crap a bout me and not asking who i am or what it like to be in my shoes i life god been there for me and that means a lot to me more the u know how should i be i love being a nice person but why do nice girls finish last tell me that i men no sex but a boy friend or a guy in their life not good that all guys want girls who are hot or mean and I'm mad u guys for screwing me over I'm done I'm single if any one looking for some one to have fun with let me know I'm so sad lonely and i hate it and I'm mad at  MEAN STUPID HOT STUFF GIRLS WHO ARE FAKE so why should i be friends with u tell me that I'm so happy thowe knowing a lot of friends been there for me I'm still a live and not dead iv been getting to Meany visions be for it happens and it crazy when things happen then every one in shock like what the heck  CHEER LEADERS UR SO MEAN TO ME NOT GOOD and now i know u girls think ur hot then talking crap a bout peeps not good idea or ur  butt will be kick not by me or any one but god him self would be mad at u for saying stuff go a head but watch out for Carma not fun getting it at all iv been on this for to dam long  ALL BANDS STOP BRAKEING UP my word why would u leav when it get hard for one plese stan up for ur selfs and dont give in or up

on a lonely road

life is not esey like other pepole say becuse u dont know me u dont know what it like to be some one who sad or mad or feel like an out cast kid and i dont think it fair to any one to be lonly and feel like they dont belong when they do and i hate that the most i feel like no one want me to be sad but i am but now i have to give u all the truth knowing who i am is not esey i feel like a book that no one dust off and let me die slowley and not careing a bout me how i feel is going to be sad or just way it going to hurt and now im 25 now almost 26 in aug i want to challeng some one to hug some one ealts no hand shakes and no mean talking eather and i hope some band will say hi to me on my face book for once and not letting me down i hate how bands do that and not careing for there fans and if a band hate me say it to my face becuse i want to know what i did to u or ur band im sorry but that hard for me to say it if u dont hate me plese tell me no band says how i help them out or any thing but it hurts to know ur a lone in life and im here for any one no one has reach out to me yet how am i sapose to be a friend and no one says any thing i dont know what im sapose to do to in life to mke any one see me or who i am in side of me i love bvb and miw plese stop the figting of bands and crap u all talk a bout them im a women who feels lonly some of the dreams i have seen good in a lot of them few of them kinda creeps me out but i need to know sad ones make me lonley if im not a live what would happen


 A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

These times in life we learn to try, with one intention
Of learning how and when we'll die, but we cant listen
I wish to god I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance
Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm

So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed
Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted
You aren't alone just know that I, cant save our hearts tonight

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone
there is a lot of songs that would make me cry and help me out the most and when i down i do sing the songs to make me feel like im not a lone but i am Waking up your neighbors downstairs
I've been inside your bedroom a thousand years
And as you tie me to the bed for good I say
that I want you in the most unromantic ways

Louisiana, you're torturing me with a beautiful face
Ana come on, I thought we had a damn good thing (damn good thing)
A penny in the couch and a diamond ring

So baby stay away from my friends
Because I need them to carry me when it's over
I'll count back from ten and you can listen to
glass hearts shattering

I don't know how you got into me
Down my throat and made a home in my veins
They used to be the rivers that would take us away
But now you only call me every Christmas and my birthday
I still can't believe how you look next to me
Just like a strip club bedroom scene

Baby stay away from my friends
Because I need them to carry me when it's over
I'll count back from ten
And you can listen to
something that you've never heard before (never heard before)

But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night
Scaring the thought of kissing razors
This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in
Stay away
Oh no
Just stay away from my friends.
I was blind, didn't know you hurt so bad
I saw inside, when everybody said I'm mad and
Ran away, never to be seen again
I found a friend, when all you need is just a friend
and all you need is a friend

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

I was lost, time was moving by so fast
Felt alone cause I was living in the past and
I ran to you, hoping we could make amends
Cast away, when all I needed was a friend

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

Would you take me by the hand?
I'm gonna take you by the hand (hand)
Would you take me by the hand?
Yeah

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

We can start with today
We can start with today
We can start with today
 love u guys and the bandsNoone knows how you feel
Noone there you'd like to see
The day was dark and full of pain
You write help with your own blood
'Cause hope is all you've got
You open up you eyes
But nothings changed

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

Your life is meaningless
Your diary full of trash
It's so hard to get along with empty hands
You're looking for the rainbow
But it died not long ago
It tried to shine just for you
Until the end

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

If the world makes you confused
And your senses you seem to lose
If the storm doesn't want to diffuse
And you just don't know what to do
Look around, I am here
Doesn't count far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around
Turn around, I am here
Turn around
Doesn't count, far or near
Turn around
If you want it's me you'll see
Turn around
I can hold you when you reach for me
Turn around, I am here
Doesn't count, far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while
We'll make it if we try

ever since you've gone
everything has felt so wrong
i'll never be the same
without you here

staring at the sun
eventually i'll come undone
it's hard to make it through a day
without you here

you'll never know i'm falling to peices
you'll never know how desperate i've become

everything i see
reminds me how it used to be
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my lungs refuse to breathe the air
without you here

and if you heard this song
could it bring you back where you belong
cause i can't even fall asleep
without you here

you'll never know i'm falling to peices
you'll never know how desperate i've become
how desperate i've become

Turn the channel on the TV
Another boy shot tonight
I can't believe what I am seeing
A body bag, a mother cries

It seems like this is never ending
I've had enough, so I decide
The time has come for me to face it
I can't refuse the war inside

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

I don't know if I can hide it
I know the truth, it's only lies
The president will deny it
The body count a steady rise

In my head there is a riot
To change the world, no one dies
The time has come for us to fight it
We can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

I know that you can change the future
I know that we can make it happen
In my head there is a riot
And I don't think that I can fight it

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

We have had enough
We have had enough
We have had enough




 this is why my life is not esey

This crazy thing called life

hi im christopher lynne dobbs from safford az and im singel i was born mield retarded and it hard when u think every thing going to be fine but it not i was born 10 days late and i was born in safford where i have 3 other family members my brother devin in Michigan Michael my sis live in new york and im here where i have a lot of friends and family who care and love me and it hard when u think u have friends who care for u but they dont some times i wish we all had friends in bands im into a lot of music that has help me out in life my life is like a small tree that been trying to grow but it not i have a lanturn on that tree it a small light where fun things are loving memory's and there a big dark tree where it sad gloomy and there 2 roads to this a good one and a bad one what should i do and i want to know how it is that i never get done wiht every thing and im lost for words some times i dont like what i look like or i do some times and no one knows how bad it is for me to

persanul

i have never told any one how i really feel some times because it hard on me and now Ur going to hear the truth and all of u have to face the music soon or later in life and now I'm letting u know how i feel it not fair that every one been mean or bulling any friends in my life if u do shame on u I'm not jugging but u cant judge me eather it not cool with me when people label me dumb stupid and not good for some one i am me love me or hate me that how it is god only a low to judge in life u cant just say oh look at her and talk crap a bout me and make fake friends with me if u love me show it don't hide it  and i do  love friends who willing to know me or help me when I'm down and some friends haven't WHERE THE HECK WHERE U GUYS WHEN I NEED IT........!!!!!!!!!!!!! some how some friends have called and made my life more happy to know when some one picks u up and dust the crap out of ur life and that what i need some one who love me for who i am not how i look it count inside and the out side and if god give you a life live it to the foulest and life to short and if u want to say im sorry to me it not to late to all the cheer leaders ur not cool with me if u ignore me then i don't give a flying heck but i do care that people help out with the disable kids we are the same like the smart kids once in a  while who are moderate we cant talk walk or see u all can help in life please don't let some one be sad help out to them to reach out ur hands to them and let them know there not a lone don't make a judge meant on them let them talk to u or talk to them or if they cant talk they will let u know by ASL and it not that hard for me to do it  and please don't let me down a lot have and it not fun to be lonely in life it hard to be here in life with out love seaport in life for me i feel like an out cast it not good to be called one or feel it or knowing it and some friends i do owe a thanks for saving my life when i was sad or if i did not want to talk a bout it or even when i vent that when some one hurts me or just being stupid some people need to know who i am im a  daughter of god and i love screamo music and other bands i do saport a lot of them over 1,286 bands and im going to see few this summer i hope so and now i know im loved by all of u means a lot to me any bannds who need a friend let me know im all was here for u

cool friends

so there a band that i talk to a lot and i do love music and there a lot of names but the one new band sink or swim there new to me and i want to know them more!!!!!!and other bands are crazy fun or just nice I'm only a hugger no hi 5 or hand shakes or even hand hugs please respect me and let me hug u or any thing but  love from hugs to any one or bands but now I'm willing to tell this to u all i have hug 54,456 friends in pass 24 years and i have count all of them even bands hugs when I'm sad i do need a hug and not a hand hugs I'm me and I'm so happy to be here blogging a bout a lot if any of u come to safford this would be at my friends house i hope this works peace to all who enter welcome from my heart enjoy your self within god bless as you depart in my blogs so i hope u all have fun and don't for get god love all of us a round the world not matter if u have tattoos piercings or any thing I'm here to support u when Ur sad or when Ur mad or lost i know how it is to be a lone in life where no one reaching out and pulling u out of sadness i all was wonder dose any band love me or am i a lone a gen i know some bands don't know me but I'm Christopher Lynne Dobbs in safford I'm all was wonder if we meat or Ur band would u say u loved me and hold me when i cry or would u not even want to know me I'm so sad now losing a friend but I'm getting to know who i am if u hate me i for give you if i hurt u I'm sorry 2 wrongs don't make a wright 2 wrights dose not make a wrong and all this world is love stop the hate in this world we all are diffrent in are own way some day we will see him a gen and i hope love will be in are hearts not hate i hate war and i miss my army friends and other ones in bands that i want to say thanks for saving my life if it was not for music i would be dead and it not good thing I'm the only one who want love but I'm heart broken and hurt way to much my heart is tender and it not good for me or any one in my life to lose me

bands

the most fun i ever had in life s my friends in bands i have been talking to is few different ones the first one is The Broken Beauties and others who i want to see i never meat them in real life i hope that we get to know each other and bands i know is fun to hang help out but I'm mad at friends who make promises and brake them I'm so gawd and now I'm doing more venting on how i feel I'm an out cast no one even knows how it feels to be a lone and sad and it not good and i leson to bands for help when it worse I'm so mad at bands being mean and not saporting any thing or any one my first brake up was few years a go i had a boy friend for 10 years yep it the dead truth and I'm glad to be free and be me and now this is even crazy first song i heard was No doubt don't speak it made me move on and my fave vampire band is vampires every where they are so cool and nice black veil brides made my life move one  fats run a way was the most sad song iv ever heard be for there eyes is a good one confide and some other ones and my fave vampire movie is lost boys not twilight and any how it was a boring day at my house got few cool calls shout out to Friends who call me when I'm sad i figer out that love is not sex it what in Ur heart and it hurt to be heart broken and no one want to be here when I'm sad why the heck am i all was the one sad and a lone when other friends can reach out to me or in my life and then not let go and now it Ur turn to figer it out how my life go on and if u want to know why i don't vent until it get bad then there will be a bigger blog i all was say love hope and dream big if u don't then who can help in Ur life and I'm here when u need me and I'm here to let u vent to me so i can help out don't look down any more just because I'm meld retarded dose not mean that we all have  a life and it hard sad songs make me be who i am i don't know if any one knows this but I'm a small flower and every one is bigger then me i have low sealf of steam and ill let u know waht ealts u need to know if any one want to know a bout me ask ? a bout me or any thing if ur conseran
let me know
                                               love christopher lynne dobbs aka dobbster or christie

life for me in dreams or in real life

there is a lot to tell u all a bout me.and how i feel a bout music some songs made me move on when  and songs make me cry when im down or crying becuse i know what they go threw i miss my close band friends when it get heard a lot of the bands to talk to me when im sad i owe u all a hugs and a thanks for saveing my life one of my dreams was so sad i was like where is the friends when ur a lone in life but in a house there was a light a light that way crazy it was bloody read ment that my sadness was mad and the light broke my hand was cut and a friend saved my life thanks for being so close to me i owe u the most love i know that u care but my blood is not red it blue it like a flame that burns in deep where my heart has a big deep cute but im healing it slowe thowe i dont want to fix it until a brake the briks off of the depression it a big wall no one has help me out can any one hear u in a dream that u wish some one run to u and pull u out of the darkness but i know that all of u love me and knowing this blog is sad but it going to let go of sad stuff out iv been bottling up in my life is not esey i love scremo music the most and it has been more esey for me to let every one know how it is my life is hard it like a bad dreams and good ones but there more then u know i was born in safford/greenly and im happy to let u know how my days are good or bad and it even more a bout me i am who i am love me hate me but i am for giveing any one who hates me beuse i know that god would do the same if any one see me cry let me cry dont tell me to stop crying becuse it not fair to be all bottel up let me go and cry wiht out friends or music i would not be here i would be in a diffrent place and a diffrent life and im happy to say i love bands in a way that they dont even know one of my frieds all was say ur not a lone but i am some times to see what i ahve done for other friends in my life i think it far to say that my dreams some times get sad and scary some are so cool or even love some are way bloody or just me under a tree i found out that the white tree is growing becuse all friends n my face book is there for me and bands i want to say im here for u i hope some bands email me or read my blog or any one in safford thacher or pima i nhave friends in la like vampiers every where derek woods or bvb or  othr bands that has made a diffrence in ly life i owe u all love and saport i dont care if any one thinksthat Mormons dont leson to hard music it get me threw the worst days  ps i hope this one dose not confuse any one