life for me in dreams or in real life

there is a lot to tell u all a bout me.and how i feel a bout music some songs made me move on when  and songs make me cry when im down or crying becuse i know what they go threw i miss my close band friends when it get heard a lot of the bands to talk to me when im sad i owe u all a hugs and a thanks for saveing my life one of my dreams was so sad i was like where is the friends when ur a lone in life but in a house there was a light a light that way crazy it was bloody read ment that my sadness was mad and the light broke my hand was cut and a friend saved my life thanks for being so close to me i owe u the most love i know that u care but my blood is not red it blue it like a flame that burns in deep where my heart has a big deep cute but im healing it slowe thowe i dont want to fix it until a brake the briks off of the depression it a big wall no one has help me out can any one hear u in a dream that u wish some one run to u and pull u out of the darkness but i know that all of u love me and knowing this blog is sad but it going to let go of sad stuff out iv been bottling up in my life is not esey i love scremo music the most and it has been more esey for me to let every one know how it is my life is hard it like a bad dreams and good ones but there more then u know i was born in safford/greenly and im happy to let u know how my days are good or bad and it even more a bout me i am who i am love me hate me but i am for giveing any one who hates me beuse i know that god would do the same if any one see me cry let me cry dont tell me to stop crying becuse it not fair to be all bottel up let me go and cry wiht out friends or music i would not be here i would be in a diffrent place and a diffrent life and im happy to say i love bands in a way that they dont even know one of my frieds all was say ur not a lone but i am some times to see what i ahve done for other friends in my life i think it far to say that my dreams some times get sad and scary some are so cool or even love some are way bloody or just me under a tree i found out that the white tree is growing becuse all friends n my face book is there for me and bands i want to say im here for u i hope some bands email me or read my blog or any one in safford thacher or pima i nhave friends in la like vampiers every where derek woods or bvb or  othr bands that has made a diffrence in ly life i owe u all love and saport i dont care if any one thinksthat Mormons dont leson to hard music it get me threw the worst days  ps i hope this one dose not confuse any one