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Monday, July 18, 2011

this is it the big one

there is a lot to tell u all a bout me.and how i feel a bout music some songs made me move on when and songs make me cry when im down or crying becuse i know what they go threw i miss my close band friends when it get heard a lot of the bands to talk to me when im sad i owe u all a hugs and a thanks for saveing my life one of my dreams was so sad i was like where is the friends when ur a lone in life but in a house there was a light a light that way crazy it was bloody read ment that my sadness was mad and the light broke my hand was cut and a friend saved my life thanks for being so close to me i owe u the most love i know that u care but my blood is not red it blue it like a flame that burns in deep where my heart has a big deep cute but im healing it slowe thowe i dont want to fix it until a brake the briks off of the depression it a big wall no one has help me out can any one hear u in a dream that u wish some one run to u and pull u out of the darkness but i know that all of u love me and knowing this blog is sad but it going to let go of sad stuff out iv been bottling up in my life is not esey i love scremo music the most and it has been more esey for me to let every one know how it is my life is hard it like a bad dreams and good ones but there more then u know i was born in safford/greenly and im happy to let u know how my days are good or bad and it even more a bout me i am who i am love me hate me but i am for giveing any one who hates me beuse i know that god would do the same if any one see me cry let me cry dont tell me to stop crying becuse it not fair to be all bottel up let me go and cry wiht out friends or music i would not be here i would be in a diffrent place and a diffrent life and im happy to say i love bands in a way that they dont even know one of my frieds all was say ur not a lone but i am some times to see what i ahve done for other friends in my life i think it far to say that my dreams some times get sad and scary some are so cool or even love some are way bloody or just me under a tree i found out that the white tree is growing becuse all friends n my face book is there for me and bands i want to say im here for u i hope some bands email me or read my blog or any one in safford thacher or pima i nhave friends in la like vampiers every where derek woods or bvb or othr bands that has made a diffrence in ly life i owe u all love and saport i dont care if any one thinksthat Mormons dont leson to hard music it get me threw the worst days ps i hope this one dose not confuse any one

so i had an idea to meet a new friends on face book im so happy to have friends from a round the world and i don't feel a lone but i still do in my own way and it not ur fault that i have to deal with some sad ness in life i hope soo we get to see each other in life sorry i was not there for u i should been there when u where sad i was wrong a lot of times i was not there to save ur life and i should of this time I'm not going to stand a lone and it been few years i miss my dog i really do not know how it will take me to say this but i love a band who willing to love me for who i am and not how i look it hard wright now i found out some thing a out a band i use to lesson to i all was wonder why brake up and then going to a nother bands do i only know few of friends in a band who all was says this no matter how far u are I'm here in ur heart or in ur heart i miss them to much i never had a boy friend in a band but now im single i made a promise to my self if some one loves me then ill love them even more im a broken heart kid i love falling in love, but being in love hurts i have the best friends in the world i say whats on my mind in me for who i am cant u see that breaking me down and drowning me is the worst u can do to me im not giving in and now im done with every thing but if u read this u know that im not going to be a lone and let u brake me down any more knowing how big of a Lie u are and stabbing me

i had a friend who has Cancer and it sad because i wish u where there to say ur last good bye it hurt me the most is not being there and i wish i had a chance to say a lot to u be for u ur flight to haven and i wish i had said something to u be for u die or kill ur self it not fair that im here and ur not i cant even try to explain every thing i have dreams a bout u why cant u leave me a lone did i do something wrong or did u need me the most or it just time to move on who ever is a live need to let me cry it not good to let it in and i herd a nother thing to if u where pregnant and u had an abortion not cool at all to let u know that way bad but if it was for a doctors reason then i can understand but if it was not for that reason then i wont for give you at all not good i had a friend who told me she was going to do it but it ur kids life that called murder and im not happy that people kill other people in life i mean who u kill might have kids or a wife and that so bad idea i have lost to many friends to death why and it not a fun at all to be in the army and u have to kill why i mad as heck at certain people who bioch a bout me u don't know me so back off it not fun to have friends who say oh we are friends then they back stab me u lieing son of a gun of a friend who talk crap a bout me and it u turn to tell me why or what i did to u ur not a good friend to lie to my face ur a mean loser but i can help out IF U STOP BULLING THE CRAP OUT OF ME AND NOT BEING A SON OF A GUN eater and u dont love me get marred and leave me the hello mercy a lone ur not my b/f and u dont care u did not even invite me to ur wedding bull crap ur not so close to me any more did u think i know ur loser g/f ur wife is mad at me for nothing i did she did not want me to go so it ur fault u did not ask me to marry u stupid guys dam it

the most fun i ever had in life s my friends in bands i have been talking to is few different ones the first one is The Broken Beauties and others who i want to see i never meat them in real life i hope that we get to know each other and bands i know is fun to hang help out but I'm mad at friends who make promises and brake them I'm so gawd and now I'm doing more venting on how i feel I'm an out cast no one even knows how it feels to be a lone and sad and it not good and i leson to bands for help when it worse I'm so mad at bands being mean and not saporting any thing or any one my first brake up was few years a go i had a boy friend for 10 years yep it the dead truth and I'm glad to be free and be me and now this is even crazy first song i heard was No doubt don't speak it made me move on and my fave vampire band is vampires every where they are so cool and nice black veil brides made my life move one fats run a way was the most sad song iv ever heard be for there eyes is a good one confide and some other ones and my fave vampire movie is lost boys not twilight and any how it was a boring day at my house got few cool calls shout out to Friends who call me when I'm sad i figer out that love is not sex it what in Ur heart and it hurt to be heart broken and no one want to be here when I'm sad why the heck am i all was the one sad and a lone when other friends can reach out to me or in my life and then not let go and now it Ur turn to figer it out how my life go on and if u want to know why i don't vent until it get bad then there will be a bigger blog i all was say love hope and dream big if u don't then who can help in Ur life and I'm here when u need me and I'm here to let u vent to me so i can help out don't look down any more just because I'm meld retarded dose not mean that we all have a life and it hard sad songs make me be who i am i don't know if any one knows this but I'm a small flower and every one is bigger then me i have low sealf of steam and ill let u know waht ealts u need to know if any one want to know a bout me ask ? a bout me or any thing if ur conseran

let me know

love christopher lynne dobbs aka dobbster or christie

so there a band that i talk to a lot and i do love music and there a lot of names but the one new band sink or swim there new to me and i want to know them more!!!!!!and other bands are crazy fun or just nice I'm only a hugger no hi 5 or hand shakes or even hand hugs please respect me and let me hug u or any thing but love from hugs to any one or bands but now I'm willing to tell this to u all i have hug 54,456 friends in pass 24 years and i have count all of them even bands hugs when I'm sad i do need a hug and not a hand hugs I'm me and I'm so happy to be here blogging a bout a lot if any of u come to safford this would be at my friends house i hope this works peace to all who enter welcome from my heart enjoy your self within god bless as you depart in my blogs so i hope u all have fun and don't for get god love all of us a round the world not matter if u have tattoos piercings or any thing I'm here to support u when Ur sad or when Ur mad or lost i know how it is to be a lone in life where no one reaching out and pulling u out of sadness i all was wonder dose any band love me or am i a lone a gen i know some bands don't know me but I'm Christopher Lynne Dobbs in safford I'm all was wonder if we meat or Ur band would u say u loved me and hold me when i cry or would u not even want to know me I'm so sad now losing a friend but I'm getting to know who i am if u hate me i for give you if i hurt u I'm sorry 2 wrongs don't make a wright 2 wrights dose not make a wrong and all this world is love stop the hate in this world we all are diffrent in are own way some day we will see him a gen and i hope love will be in are hearts not hate i hate war and i miss my army friends and other ones in bands that i want to say thanks for saving my life if it was not for music i would be dead and it not good thing I'm the only one who want love but I'm heart broken and hurt way to much my heart is tender and it not good for me or any one in my life to lose me



life is not esey like other pepole say becuse u dont know me u dont know what it like to be some one who sad or mad or feel like an out cast kid and i dont think it fair to any one to be lonly and feel like they dont belong when they do and i hate that the most i feel like no one want me to be sad but i am but now i have to give u all the truth knowing who i am is not esey i feel like a book that no one dust off and let me die slowley and not careing a bout me how i feel is going to be sad or just way it going to hurt and now im 25 now almost 26 in aug i want to challeng some one to hug some one ealts no hand shakes and no mean talking eather and i hope some band will say hi to me on my face book for once and not letting me down i hate how bands do that and not careing for there fans and if a band hate me say it to my face becuse i want to know what i did to u or ur band im sorry but that hard for me to say it if u dont hate me plese tell me no band says how i help them out or any thing but it hurts to know ur a lone in life and im here for any one no one has reach out to me yet how am i sapose to be a friend and no one says any thing i dont know what im sapose to do to in life to mke any one see me or who i am in side of me i love bvb and miw plese stop the figting of bands and crap u all talk a bout them im a women who feels lonly some of the dreams i have seen good in a lot of them few of them kinda creeps me out but i need to know sad ones make me lonley if im not a live what would happen





A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

and all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in, to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

when hope begins to fade...



A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find



Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again



These times in life we learn to try, with one intention

Of learning how and when we'll die, but we cant listen

I wish to god I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance

Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm



So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed

Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted

You aren't alone just know that I, cant save our hearts tonight



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm

And face today

You're not alone



You're not alone

We'll brave this storm

And face today

You're not alone

there is a lot of songs that would make me cry and help me out the most and when i down i do sing the songs to make me feel like im not a lone but i am Waking up your neighbors downstairs

I've been inside your bedroom a thousand years

And as you tie me to the bed for good I say

that I want you in the most unromantic ways



Louisiana, you're torturing me with a beautiful face

Ana come on, I thought we had a damn good thing (damn good thing)

A penny in the couch and a diamond ring



So baby stay away from my friends

Because I need them to carry me when it's over

I'll count back from ten and you can listen to

glass hearts shattering



I don't know how you got into me

Down my throat and made a home in my veins

They used to be the rivers that would take us away

But now you only call me every Christmas and my birthday

I still can't believe how you look next to me

Just like a strip club bedroom scene



Baby stay away from my friends

Because I need them to carry me when it's over

I'll count back from ten

And you can listen to

something that you've never heard before (never heard before)



But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night

Scaring the thought of kissing razors

This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in

Stay away

Oh no

Just stay away from my friends.

I was blind, didn't know you hurt so bad

I saw inside, when everybody said I'm mad and

Ran away, never to be seen again

I found a friend, when all you need is just a friend

and all you need is a friend



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



I was lost, time was moving by so fast

Felt alone cause I was living in the past and

I ran to you, hoping we could make amends

Cast away, when all I needed was a friend



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



Would you take me by the hand?

I'm gonna take you by the hand (hand)

Would you take me by the hand?

Yeah



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay



I don't want you to go

One million miles away

Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)

I will bring you back home

Shelter you from the wind

Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)

We can start with today



We can start with today

We can start with today

We can start with today

love u guys and the bandsNoone knows how you feel

Noone there you'd like to see

The day was dark and full of pain

You write help with your own blood

'Cause hope is all you've got

You open up you eyes

But nothings changed



I don't want to cause you trouble

Don't wanna stay too long

I just came here to say to you



Turn around, I am here

If you want it's me you'll see

Doesn't count, far or near

I can hold you when you reach for me



Your life is meaningless

Your diary full of trash

It's so hard to get along with empty hands

You're looking for the rainbow

But it died not long ago

It tried to shine just for you

Until the end



I don't want to cause you trouble

Don't wanna stay too long

I just came here to say to you

I am by your side

Just for a little while



Turn around, I am here

If you want it's me you'll see

Doesn't count, far or near

I can hold you when you reach for me



If the world makes you confused

And your senses you seem to lose

If the storm doesn't want to diffuse

And you just don't know what to do

Look around, I am here

Doesn't count far or near



I am by your side

Just for a little while



Turn around

Turn around, I am here

Turn around

Doesn't count, far or near

Turn around

If you want it's me you'll see

Turn around

I can hold you when you reach for me

Turn around, I am here

Doesn't count, far or near



I am by your side

Just for a little while

We'll make it if we try



ever since you've gone

everything has felt so wrong

i'll never be the same

without you here



staring at the sun

eventually i'll come undone

it's hard to make it through a day

without you here



you'll never know i'm falling to peices

you'll never know how desperate i've become



everything i see

reminds me how it used to be

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my lungs refuse to breathe the air

without you here



and if you heard this song

could it bring you back where you belong

cause i can't even fall asleep

without you here



you'll never know i'm falling to peices

you'll never know how desperate i've become

how desperate i've become



Turn the channel on the TV

Another boy shot tonight

I can't believe what I am seeing

A body bag, a mother cries



It seems like this is never ending

I've had enough, so I decide

The time has come for me to face it

I can't refuse the war inside



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



I don't know if I can hide it

I know the truth, it's only lies

The president will deny it

The body count a steady rise



In my head there is a riot

To change the world, no one dies

The time has come for us to fight it

We can't refuse the war inside

Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



I know that you can change the future

I know that we can make it happen

In my head there is a riot

And I don't think that I can fight it



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



'Cause we have had enough

All the violence has touched

Every part of our lives

Our innocence is gone tonight



We have had enough

We have had enough

We have had enough









this is why my life is not esey

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