lost for words

so every one been asking me to blog every week u just got to be kidding me I'm barely starting and it going to get even crazier now I'm sad and I'm lost for words i know how to say this but i don't know what to do but u all need to for give Ur self be for u say sorry to any one elates it the way to be happy and learning it not esey and i hate the fact that no one willing to say I'm sorry for letting u down but u all have done that to me or some one and breaking a promise to me is way big and being mean rude and jugging me it not the way to be or who u are i don't know u i don't think it fair that u would talk crap a bout me and not asking who i am or what it like to be in my shoes i life god been there for me and that means a lot to me more the u know how should i be i love being a nice person but why do nice girls finish last tell me that i men no sex but a boy friend or a guy in their life not good that all guys want girls who are hot or mean and I'm mad u guys for screwing me over I'm done I'm single if any one looking for some one to have fun with let me know I'm so sad lonely and i hate it and I'm mad at  MEAN STUPID HOT STUFF GIRLS WHO ARE FAKE so why should i be friends with u tell me that I'm so happy thowe knowing a lot of friends been there for me I'm still a live and not dead iv been getting to Meany visions be for it happens and it crazy when things happen then every one in shock like what the heck  CHEER LEADERS UR SO MEAN TO ME NOT GOOD and now i know u girls think ur hot then talking crap a bout peeps not good idea or ur  butt will be kick not by me or any one but god him self would be mad at u for saying stuff go a head but watch out for Carma not fun getting it at all iv been on this for to dam long  ALL BANDS STOP BRAKEING UP my word why would u leav when it get hard for one plese stan up for ur selfs and dont give in or up