Marry Christmas

I hope this year was fun for all of you I know a lot of you have lost a love one or a friend some day you will see them in heaven and they are looking at you all with smiles 

I have not been ok I have been mad for 4 month I hate DAM DRAMA if u hate me you hate god for he is in you and love all we need in life but it time to fix it 

but to all marry Christmas 

i do have face time

i know a lot of u don't know me but here i go if any of u want to know me please send a comment under here so we get to know each other i hope one of these days we get to do face time

i all was here

I all was here if u need some one to love or be friends with I don't like how every one telling me  TO CALM DOWN IM ME how would u feel if I told u off would u like it no so how would u feel if u did this every day and night not cool im tired of it and it me not u I don't give a crap if ur laughing at me u don't know how fun it to laugh to I don't give a crap im me ill dust u off but now ui have a dream here I go
I don't know how to tell u this but im not the lonely one I seen friends in different dreams don't make any since the sky that dreams for love im lost in my dreams I find friends who are not humans there like earth people there like the wind the sky rocks and trees and then there the dark ones who im never a low to tell any one I don't know but im willing to be a live and then I see the shadows of friends who has pass I never know why but this time im telling you have friends who are there in ur dreams to help you out if u ever want to know even iv seen stuff I don't know how to explain it sorry but this is hard to tell any one for what iv gone threw

DOG HOUSE

 well now u get to hear this one some one who I wont tell you who has  ask me what ur dog house how big is it is some one in deep trouble with you in a way yes means u don't tell me who I am or who should be my friends u don't tell me how to live my life u don't even know what iv been threw

im back

hey every one im so  sorry I have been hiding from every one I had time to think I all was know some one looking over me few weeks a go I found the strange thing that made me think hmm I know iv gone threw a lot of crap but im still here thin it hit me hello in a dream yes who are u im a friend who been helping you threw a bad time knowing there was a bad rain storm in Safford for almost 2 weeks

Love

I have a cool firends her name is Megan she so cool she all was make me smile when I'm sad she all was there for you no matter if u need a friend she make me think I have some one to be friends with I don't have to lesson to stupid crap she there when u need to get crazy stuff out of your brain some how I call her sis she all ways nice not mean and rude like other girls I know!!!!!! Some how every one at eastern Arizona college need a friend if u don't have one go find some one who there for you no matter what happens to you 

Thank you

Thank you all for my b day wish some where here it been sad town a good friend in high school has died 

How is every one

Happy b day to you all from me to you and have a good one 

I'm almost 29

Every one ask what make u happy well my b day I was born August 11,1985 I wanted to say thanks for letting me be and thanks for letting you all know a bout me

 

Sad

I've been down this road by my self not cool I know every one knows this but thIs time not good today marks 9 years of sad things in my life but I'm not shuer if it my heart or my soul I don't like crying I feel like part of me is dead not good i want to cry how can this be I'm trying not to cry but I miss my dog my close friends I'm still here why me i all was ask but now I know why if I was dead no one would of know me no one want to find me or be my friend I'm so sad but I have to brake the chain that 

True life

Don't you feel like some one hear you but not a live and you dream a bout them I so that a lot of times I don know how to explain it it like a worm feeling that some one watching you and u wish some one was there to hug you but I'm the only one who can feel them but they see you an they know who you are 

I'm the lonely child of god who know thing be for they happen  

I have cool friends

I love my friends thanks for the love and care that you all have for me  

Flagstaff

I'm so happy that I went to see family in flagstaff I had fun but it was hard on me because I was in a volcano cave was really scary it was to dark had to have a light to show where you where walking never so it i hit my head 3 times 3 panic  attacks Alice help me so did my dad thank gosh for them both Emma was so happy that I got threw I and not stop I'm ok now I'm coming home we saw saturn it was to small look like a pic from a movie mason way nice cooper thanks for being a goo friend and a family member Emma I hope we keep in touch they have a cat I like him but he was trying to eat my ear plugs not cool cat I'm not to happy to not say good bye to Emma sorry I left and we did not call to say thank you for your love thank you all who was worried a bout me I never new that love still there in flagstaff I'm still trying to move on but some times some one try's to push u a way don't let them hurt your love and 

i dont want u to hate me

I was born to love some one but I found out I was not a normal person as every one thinks I am I don't have a lot of friends who would ever be there for me im sad lost and im trying to save some one life I don't know how or why

Don't know what to say

I've  been lost but u know I'm back I don't want this summer to suck for me I'm the one who lost a lot of friends in church it seems no one want to find me and be there it hard for me to even writ this I know bands don't reach out but I need it some day ill die and ill never know how life with out me be like I'm so sorry if any if you hate me but if u hate me then you hate god it not good to be mean 

i love my new life it now been 2 times in 2 weeks

so I have been really happy out of no where some one see me ask me hey u seem to happy what happen to your old self it gone well kinda gone I was having a hard time telling some one who I don't know how I felt I did iv been going to this cool chick in Safford she so nice and cool Iv done this 2 times in 2 weeks I don't know what going to happen but I know god love me more then I use to know I was really sad finding out your friends who never been in your life can hurt you not knowing what wrong with you   I know a lot of u wont hurt me but there a lot of stuff know one knows but only me god and my new therapy I think now I can do something good for once in my life I wonder why am I here well all of you love me don't u like me for who I am believe me it sucks to be sad lonely and hurt I have to deal with a lot I know some of you want to know how I am well im doing better but a lot of friends are not in the dog house if u want to be there for me here I am I don't know what going to happen but im a live not dead I use to hurt my own feelings but now im fixing it I know a lot of friends want to know why I cry a lot well im me I cant control my own crying I use to be called cry baby now I cry for every one who hurt the most it been ok I use to go a way some times ask god why me but now that different for me I thank him for every thing I have im now 2 weeks happy is that crazy I mean 2 weeks now it my 3rd weeks im doing good I hope to feel like real me I want every one know there is a god if he did not put me here u would ask I wonder  who Christie is why is she so nice and helping others be for her I do it because im me I don't hate any one unless u don't like me for who I am im sorry if I hurt any one I know a lot of u would say the  same thing to me to be a true friend you would never screw a friendship knowing that I would be ask for a  true friendship im not there to put you in there but my dog house is too full and your out I worn you thowe  if u make me feel less then a friend that sucks for you knowing im here to stay and ur not here to hurt me I know your out there wondering if im ok yes I am but now im new me I can say karma mean but im way nice

HAPPY NEWS

so I had time to think I did a lot of work on this idea I have going on but im sad to see some one not here when some one sad go to  therapy  it good for you and your sadness I have learn to heal it not to easy like every one thinks it take time to for give your self  it seem like I have a big demon but im going to kill it time for me to get happy and have my life back it hard but im me trying to find me the real one that ran a way in to the darkness I have to deal with this im no longer a lone on this one please pray for me or any of ur fans or family we all need love we need this hate to stop I know a lot of u think im lost I am but im taking back my life from all the haters go a head hate me I don't care im moving on  with life





ps thanks to all the bands and friends for there love and help need to keep up with me it going to be fun crazy I hope if I go threw a bad day ull know

umm WOW EASTERN ARIZONA COLLEGE WONDER WHY NO ONE MY FRIEND

so I have no way of saying this because I know a lot of you would be mad knowing I'm not here well this dose not have not know I'm   no longer A LOWED ON EAC CAMPUS NOT COOL any words just knowing I'm not dead I'm not all mad yes knowing FRIENDS LIE I TRUSTED YOU ALL TO BE THERR FOR ME NO U WONT SCARD TO LOVE ME  was here I felt to tell you how I really feel this is not cool eastern Arizona college  is going down hill and I want new friends and no one willing to try are u that dumb eac u need help  A WAKE UP CALL I feel like every one freaking out dang do I need to try find a new college if that happens then some one going to stand up u all loseing me now