i love my new life it now been 2 times in 2 weeks

so I have been really happy out of no where some one see me ask me hey u seem to happy what happen to your old self it gone well kinda gone I was having a hard time telling some one who I don't know how I felt I did iv been going to this cool chick in Safford she so nice and cool Iv done this 2 times in 2 weeks I don't know what going to happen but I know god love me more then I use to know I was really sad finding out your friends who never been in your life can hurt you not knowing what wrong with you   I know a lot of u wont hurt me but there a lot of stuff know one knows but only me god and my new therapy I think now I can do something good for once in my life I wonder why am I here well all of you love me don't u like me for who I am believe me it sucks to be sad lonely and hurt I have to deal with a lot I know some of you want to know how I am well im doing better but a lot of friends are not in the dog house if u want to be there for me here I am I don't know what going to happen but im a live not dead I use to hurt my own feelings but now im fixing it I know a lot of friends want to know why I cry a lot well im me I cant control my own crying I use to be called cry baby now I cry for every one who hurt the most it been ok I use to go a way some times ask god why me but now that different for me I thank him for every thing I have im now 2 weeks happy is that crazy I mean 2 weeks now it my 3rd weeks im doing good I hope to feel like real me I want every one know there is a god if he did not put me here u would ask I wonder  who Christie is why is she so nice and helping others be for her I do it because im me I don't hate any one unless u don't like me for who I am im sorry if I hurt any one I know a lot of u would say the  same thing to me to be a true friend you would never screw a friendship knowing that I would be ask for a  true friendship im not there to put you in there but my dog house is too full and your out I worn you thowe  if u make me feel less then a friend that sucks for you knowing im here to stay and ur not here to hurt me I know your out there wondering if im ok yes I am but now im new me I can say karma mean but im way nice

HAPPY NEWS

so I had time to think I did a lot of work on this idea I have going on but im sad to see some one not here when some one sad go to  therapy  it good for you and your sadness I have learn to heal it not to easy like every one thinks it take time to for give your self  it seem like I have a big demon but im going to kill it time for me to get happy and have my life back it hard but im me trying to find me the real one that ran a way in to the darkness I have to deal with this im no longer a lone on this one please pray for me or any of ur fans or family we all need love we need this hate to stop I know a lot of u think im lost I am but im taking back my life from all the haters go a head hate me I don't care im moving on  with life





ps thanks to all the bands and friends for there love and help need to keep up with me it going to be fun crazy I hope if I go threw a bad day ull know