im lost

OK now i have a lot to say but im so mad but i don't know what to do or say but u all need to back off of me and it not cool that u say i cant do it but i am i hate all of u all for jugging over what im doing im lds and a christian and it not good to tell me that i cant have friends in diffrent places or in bands or any one knows me get the h a way from me and let me live the life i want im so lost for word for some one being bad mean not good im so stress out because of u and ur stupid friends don't like me the way u act make me smile and laugh bad idea to make some one sad and not caring a bout what they do in life or me in life it not esey to be sad ans i am so now i get to say this i hate bad guys i want a guy to love me for who i am not because im small girl im almost tall and im not a fraid to tell some one how i fell and if u hate me then lose me for what i did so cry me a big dam river and dont look at me like im stuped or dum im a real life girl im not dam 12 im 25 in august ill be 26 im so dang sad that i ahve lost a lot of friends in life to be happy it not esey for me or any one close to my heart im so mad that u left out me out in ur life how couldu never ask me if i was going to be there for u and then left me out in lifeand not good to know who i am and not knowing that im a live if im not here for a month or a week plese worry  and it so hard for me to deal wiht every thing i need time off

sorry but ur not cool with me at all to tell me how im sapose to be

I'm so tierd of every one say dont be sad be happy I'm telling u know I'm a lowed to be sad when things go wrong and it not good that i have to be happy and i need to deal with it by my self so let me tell u if u dont let me cry it going to be bad idea to ask me how i feel I'm trying to let a lot out how dare u say i cant let my sad ness out that not good i was crying because of things and friends who lie to me and u say dont have a pity cry that way low and not cool would u like to see me dead or a live and it not cool that u did what u did then asking me if I'm ok I'm killing a big wall and ur not there to see how stress full it is to let go of things in life it so dam stupid that u think it was me it not it was u and it dosent matter to me now because u need to move one if im not on my face book or blogging for a month means bad news or im getting other things to do and none of it concerns to u that im done with this crap im a so mad at u know that u told a lie a bout me asking if i was pregnant i was not i hate girls and guys who ask things and i dont give a heck who u are but being mean and saying stuff not true dang it and ur not a good friend im mad that u had to ask and act like a little mean girl and i dont like thatu siad it and act fake as a girl not cool thought u could bring me down no u cant becuse u lost me and it over get marred and get out of my life for good im so mad i wanted to tell u that if u did love me and then tell me u made amastake not good to let me know after u did it and know i know who u are and not good to let me down drowning in sadness for life

scard to be a lone

every day and night i had dreams a bout my death not like normal death like dieing in a friends arms and every time i see it i know soon it will happen and no one going to stop it i have so much to do for every one ealts when is it my trun to get marred or even have kids and i cant do that no one loves me even vampiers have left me now why did this happen to me i hate that im lonley and no one want to help me out and now im lost for  words or even hugs or even feelings every things even in my dreams DOSE ANY ONE LOVE ME do i have to walk a lone i hope not do i feel loved no do i feel like no one knows how it feels to be called a out cast kid yes i do i know that there a lot of things to do for who u are and what u do i life for me it harder then u know i feel like no one want to know me at all i feel like it then u know this is me faceing the music and ur not here to see it im all was crying i dont care if u want to know or not but im here in thos world and it get way to lonley and im here to say ur not a lone but u have for got me and it sad for the last time i blog it was a lonley road u did not come to look for me or love me and tell me to move on ur not a good friend u hit me like a rain storm u did not say i want u to be happy and move on u did not say hey christie here my hand and ull never have to be sad why did i go threw this and god i love u so much u been there for me when im sad down broken and dont feel loved by any one and u all ways there when im sad i never told any one but it time to say it who going to be there for me if i need it im aking im not demanding it i want to know some of u had said ill be there for u and umm not true and im mad that u left me on a road that u where there and know ur not here why is it me loseing every thing every one and even my vampier friends to are u kidding me and know i feel like no one here it done over im going to brake walls and i did and now u know if u brake a promis then u brake a hug and my heart and u never cared dont u know im almost 26 and if i was marred every one in the world would come and bands to im lost to say this but dont make me sad come to me ask me if im ok if im not let me cry on u and no one has offer that to me until know im so mad at any one who make fun of kids who have disabilitys and it not good to know that i had a friend who killed him self becuse of it  good time to say it love happyness hope and dont look down

lost for words

so every one been asking me to blog every week u just got to be kidding me I'm barely starting and it going to get even crazier now I'm sad and I'm lost for words i know how to say this but i don't know what to do but u all need to for give Ur self be for u say sorry to any one elates it the way to be happy and learning it not esey and i hate the fact that no one willing to say I'm sorry for letting u down but u all have done that to me or some one and breaking a promise to me is way big and being mean rude and jugging me it not the way to be or who u are i don't know u i don't think it fair that u would talk crap a bout me and not asking who i am or what it like to be in my shoes i life god been there for me and that means a lot to me more the u know how should i be i love being a nice person but why do nice girls finish last tell me that i men no sex but a boy friend or a guy in their life not good that all guys want girls who are hot or mean and I'm mad u guys for screwing me over I'm done I'm single if any one looking for some one to have fun with let me know I'm so sad lonely and i hate it and I'm mad at  MEAN STUPID HOT STUFF GIRLS WHO ARE FAKE so why should i be friends with u tell me that I'm so happy thowe knowing a lot of friends been there for me I'm still a live and not dead iv been getting to Meany visions be for it happens and it crazy when things happen then every one in shock like what the heck  CHEER LEADERS UR SO MEAN TO ME NOT GOOD and now i know u girls think ur hot then talking crap a bout peeps not good idea or ur  butt will be kick not by me or any one but god him self would be mad at u for saying stuff go a head but watch out for Carma not fun getting it at all iv been on this for to dam long  ALL BANDS STOP BRAKEING UP my word why would u leav when it get hard for one plese stan up for ur selfs and dont give in or up

on a lonely road

life is not esey like other pepole say becuse u dont know me u dont know what it like to be some one who sad or mad or feel like an out cast kid and i dont think it fair to any one to be lonly and feel like they dont belong when they do and i hate that the most i feel like no one want me to be sad but i am but now i have to give u all the truth knowing who i am is not esey i feel like a book that no one dust off and let me die slowley and not careing a bout me how i feel is going to be sad or just way it going to hurt and now im 25 now almost 26 in aug i want to challeng some one to hug some one ealts no hand shakes and no mean talking eather and i hope some band will say hi to me on my face book for once and not letting me down i hate how bands do that and not careing for there fans and if a band hate me say it to my face becuse i want to know what i did to u or ur band im sorry but that hard for me to say it if u dont hate me plese tell me no band says how i help them out or any thing but it hurts to know ur a lone in life and im here for any one no one has reach out to me yet how am i sapose to be a friend and no one says any thing i dont know what im sapose to do to in life to mke any one see me or who i am in side of me i love bvb and miw plese stop the figting of bands and crap u all talk a bout them im a women who feels lonly some of the dreams i have seen good in a lot of them few of them kinda creeps me out but i need to know sad ones make me lonley if im not a live what would happen


 A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

These times in life we learn to try, with one intention
Of learning how and when we'll die, but we cant listen
I wish to god I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance
Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm

So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed
Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted
You aren't alone just know that I, cant save our hearts tonight

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone
there is a lot of songs that would make me cry and help me out the most and when i down i do sing the songs to make me feel like im not a lone but i am Waking up your neighbors downstairs
I've been inside your bedroom a thousand years
And as you tie me to the bed for good I say
that I want you in the most unromantic ways

Louisiana, you're torturing me with a beautiful face
Ana come on, I thought we had a damn good thing (damn good thing)
A penny in the couch and a diamond ring

So baby stay away from my friends
Because I need them to carry me when it's over
I'll count back from ten and you can listen to
glass hearts shattering

I don't know how you got into me
Down my throat and made a home in my veins
They used to be the rivers that would take us away
But now you only call me every Christmas and my birthday
I still can't believe how you look next to me
Just like a strip club bedroom scene

Baby stay away from my friends
Because I need them to carry me when it's over
I'll count back from ten
And you can listen to
something that you've never heard before (never heard before)

But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night
Scaring the thought of kissing razors
This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in
Stay away
Oh no
Just stay away from my friends.
I was blind, didn't know you hurt so bad
I saw inside, when everybody said I'm mad and
Ran away, never to be seen again
I found a friend, when all you need is just a friend
and all you need is a friend

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

I was lost, time was moving by so fast
Felt alone cause I was living in the past and
I ran to you, hoping we could make amends
Cast away, when all I needed was a friend

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

Would you take me by the hand?
I'm gonna take you by the hand (hand)
Would you take me by the hand?
Yeah

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay

I don't want you to go
One million miles away
Let you know that it's okay (let you know that it's okay)
I will bring you back home
Shelter you from the wind
Light a path with a burning flame (light a path with a burning flame)
We can start with today

We can start with today
We can start with today
We can start with today
 love u guys and the bandsNoone knows how you feel
Noone there you'd like to see
The day was dark and full of pain
You write help with your own blood
'Cause hope is all you've got
You open up you eyes
But nothings changed

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

Your life is meaningless
Your diary full of trash
It's so hard to get along with empty hands
You're looking for the rainbow
But it died not long ago
It tried to shine just for you
Until the end

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

If the world makes you confused
And your senses you seem to lose
If the storm doesn't want to diffuse
And you just don't know what to do
Look around, I am here
Doesn't count far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around
Turn around, I am here
Turn around
Doesn't count, far or near
Turn around
If you want it's me you'll see
Turn around
I can hold you when you reach for me
Turn around, I am here
Doesn't count, far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while
We'll make it if we try

ever since you've gone
everything has felt so wrong
i'll never be the same
without you here

staring at the sun
eventually i'll come undone
it's hard to make it through a day
without you here

you'll never know i'm falling to peices
you'll never know how desperate i've become

everything i see
reminds me how it used to be
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my lungs refuse to breathe the air
without you here

and if you heard this song
could it bring you back where you belong
cause i can't even fall asleep
without you here

you'll never know i'm falling to peices
you'll never know how desperate i've become
how desperate i've become

Turn the channel on the TV
Another boy shot tonight
I can't believe what I am seeing
A body bag, a mother cries

It seems like this is never ending
I've had enough, so I decide
The time has come for me to face it
I can't refuse the war inside

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

I don't know if I can hide it
I know the truth, it's only lies
The president will deny it
The body count a steady rise

In my head there is a riot
To change the world, no one dies
The time has come for us to fight it
We can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

I know that you can change the future
I know that we can make it happen
In my head there is a riot
And I don't think that I can fight it

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

'Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight

We have had enough
We have had enough
We have had enough




 this is why my life is not esey

This crazy thing called life

hi im christopher lynne dobbs from safford az and im singel i was born mield retarded and it hard when u think every thing going to be fine but it not i was born 10 days late and i was born in safford where i have 3 other family members my brother devin in Michigan Michael my sis live in new york and im here where i have a lot of friends and family who care and love me and it hard when u think u have friends who care for u but they dont some times i wish we all had friends in bands im into a lot of music that has help me out in life my life is like a small tree that been trying to grow but it not i have a lanturn on that tree it a small light where fun things are loving memory's and there a big dark tree where it sad gloomy and there 2 roads to this a good one and a bad one what should i do and i want to know how it is that i never get done wiht every thing and im lost for words some times i dont like what i look like or i do some times and no one knows how bad it is for me to

persanul

i have never told any one how i really feel some times because it hard on me and now Ur going to hear the truth and all of u have to face the music soon or later in life and now I'm letting u know how i feel it not fair that every one been mean or bulling any friends in my life if u do shame on u I'm not jugging but u cant judge me eather it not cool with me when people label me dumb stupid and not good for some one i am me love me or hate me that how it is god only a low to judge in life u cant just say oh look at her and talk crap a bout me and make fake friends with me if u love me show it don't hide it  and i do  love friends who willing to know me or help me when I'm down and some friends haven't WHERE THE HECK WHERE U GUYS WHEN I NEED IT........!!!!!!!!!!!!! some how some friends have called and made my life more happy to know when some one picks u up and dust the crap out of ur life and that what i need some one who love me for who i am not how i look it count inside and the out side and if god give you a life live it to the foulest and life to short and if u want to say im sorry to me it not to late to all the cheer leaders ur not cool with me if u ignore me then i don't give a flying heck but i do care that people help out with the disable kids we are the same like the smart kids once in a  while who are moderate we cant talk walk or see u all can help in life please don't let some one be sad help out to them to reach out ur hands to them and let them know there not a lone don't make a judge meant on them let them talk to u or talk to them or if they cant talk they will let u know by ASL and it not that hard for me to do it  and please don't let me down a lot have and it not fun to be lonely in life it hard to be here in life with out love seaport in life for me i feel like an out cast it not good to be called one or feel it or knowing it and some friends i do owe a thanks for saving my life when i was sad or if i did not want to talk a bout it or even when i vent that when some one hurts me or just being stupid some people need to know who i am im a  daughter of god and i love screamo music and other bands i do saport a lot of them over 1,286 bands and im going to see few this summer i hope so and now i know im loved by all of u means a lot to me any bannds who need a friend let me know im all was here for u

cool friends

so there a band that i talk to a lot and i do love music and there a lot of names but the one new band sink or swim there new to me and i want to know them more!!!!!!and other bands are crazy fun or just nice I'm only a hugger no hi 5 or hand shakes or even hand hugs please respect me and let me hug u or any thing but  love from hugs to any one or bands but now I'm willing to tell this to u all i have hug 54,456 friends in pass 24 years and i have count all of them even bands hugs when I'm sad i do need a hug and not a hand hugs I'm me and I'm so happy to be here blogging a bout a lot if any of u come to safford this would be at my friends house i hope this works peace to all who enter welcome from my heart enjoy your self within god bless as you depart in my blogs so i hope u all have fun and don't for get god love all of us a round the world not matter if u have tattoos piercings or any thing I'm here to support u when Ur sad or when Ur mad or lost i know how it is to be a lone in life where no one reaching out and pulling u out of sadness i all was wonder dose any band love me or am i a lone a gen i know some bands don't know me but I'm Christopher Lynne Dobbs in safford I'm all was wonder if we meat or Ur band would u say u loved me and hold me when i cry or would u not even want to know me I'm so sad now losing a friend but I'm getting to know who i am if u hate me i for give you if i hurt u I'm sorry 2 wrongs don't make a wright 2 wrights dose not make a wrong and all this world is love stop the hate in this world we all are diffrent in are own way some day we will see him a gen and i hope love will be in are hearts not hate i hate war and i miss my army friends and other ones in bands that i want to say thanks for saving my life if it was not for music i would be dead and it not good thing I'm the only one who want love but I'm heart broken and hurt way to much my heart is tender and it not good for me or any one in my life to lose me

bands

the most fun i ever had in life s my friends in bands i have been talking to is few different ones the first one is The Broken Beauties and others who i want to see i never meat them in real life i hope that we get to know each other and bands i know is fun to hang help out but I'm mad at friends who make promises and brake them I'm so gawd and now I'm doing more venting on how i feel I'm an out cast no one even knows how it feels to be a lone and sad and it not good and i leson to bands for help when it worse I'm so mad at bands being mean and not saporting any thing or any one my first brake up was few years a go i had a boy friend for 10 years yep it the dead truth and I'm glad to be free and be me and now this is even crazy first song i heard was No doubt don't speak it made me move on and my fave vampire band is vampires every where they are so cool and nice black veil brides made my life move one  fats run a way was the most sad song iv ever heard be for there eyes is a good one confide and some other ones and my fave vampire movie is lost boys not twilight and any how it was a boring day at my house got few cool calls shout out to Friends who call me when I'm sad i figer out that love is not sex it what in Ur heart and it hurt to be heart broken and no one want to be here when I'm sad why the heck am i all was the one sad and a lone when other friends can reach out to me or in my life and then not let go and now it Ur turn to figer it out how my life go on and if u want to know why i don't vent until it get bad then there will be a bigger blog i all was say love hope and dream big if u don't then who can help in Ur life and I'm here when u need me and I'm here to let u vent to me so i can help out don't look down any more just because I'm meld retarded dose not mean that we all have  a life and it hard sad songs make me be who i am i don't know if any one knows this but I'm a small flower and every one is bigger then me i have low sealf of steam and ill let u know waht ealts u need to know if any one want to know a bout me ask ? a bout me or any thing if ur conseran
let me know
                                               love christopher lynne dobbs aka dobbster or christie

life for me in dreams or in real life

there is a lot to tell u all a bout me.and how i feel a bout music some songs made me move on when  and songs make me cry when im down or crying becuse i know what they go threw i miss my close band friends when it get heard a lot of the bands to talk to me when im sad i owe u all a hugs and a thanks for saveing my life one of my dreams was so sad i was like where is the friends when ur a lone in life but in a house there was a light a light that way crazy it was bloody read ment that my sadness was mad and the light broke my hand was cut and a friend saved my life thanks for being so close to me i owe u the most love i know that u care but my blood is not red it blue it like a flame that burns in deep where my heart has a big deep cute but im healing it slowe thowe i dont want to fix it until a brake the briks off of the depression it a big wall no one has help me out can any one hear u in a dream that u wish some one run to u and pull u out of the darkness but i know that all of u love me and knowing this blog is sad but it going to let go of sad stuff out iv been bottling up in my life is not esey i love scremo music the most and it has been more esey for me to let every one know how it is my life is hard it like a bad dreams and good ones but there more then u know i was born in safford/greenly and im happy to let u know how my days are good or bad and it even more a bout me i am who i am love me hate me but i am for giveing any one who hates me beuse i know that god would do the same if any one see me cry let me cry dont tell me to stop crying becuse it not fair to be all bottel up let me go and cry wiht out friends or music i would not be here i would be in a diffrent place and a diffrent life and im happy to say i love bands in a way that they dont even know one of my frieds all was say ur not a lone but i am some times to see what i ahve done for other friends in my life i think it far to say that my dreams some times get sad and scary some are so cool or even love some are way bloody or just me under a tree i found out that the white tree is growing becuse all friends n my face book is there for me and bands i want to say im here for u i hope some bands email me or read my blog or any one in safford thacher or pima i nhave friends in la like vampiers every where derek woods or bvb or  othr bands that has made a diffrence in ly life i owe u all love and saport i dont care if any one thinksthat Mormons dont leson to hard music it get me threw the worst days  ps i hope this one dose not confuse any one