im lost

OK now i have a lot to say but im so mad but i don't know what to do or say but u all need to back off of me and it not cool that u say i cant do it but i am i hate all of u all for jugging over what im doing im lds and a christian and it not good to tell me that i cant have friends in diffrent places or in bands or any one knows me get the h a way from me and let me live the life i want im so lost for word for some one being bad mean not good im so stress out because of u and ur stupid friends don't like me the way u act make me smile and laugh bad idea to make some one sad and not caring a bout what they do in life or me in life it not esey to be sad ans i am so now i get to say this i hate bad guys i want a guy to love me for who i am not because im small girl im almost tall and im not a fraid to tell some one how i fell and if u hate me then lose me for what i did so cry me a big dam river and dont look at me like im stuped or dum im a real life girl im not dam 12 im 25 in august ill be 26 im so dang sad that i ahve lost a lot of friends in life to be happy it not esey for me or any one close to my heart im so mad that u left out me out in ur life how couldu never ask me if i was going to be there for u and then left me out in lifeand not good to know who i am and not knowing that im a live if im not here for a month or a week plese worry  and it so hard for me to deal wiht every thing i need time off