Sad

I've been down this road by my self not cool I know every one knows this but thIs time not good today marks 9 years of sad things in my life but I'm not shuer if it my heart or my soul I don't like crying I feel like part of me is dead not good i want to cry how can this be I'm trying not to cry but I miss my dog my close friends I'm still here why me i all was ask but now I know why if I was dead no one would of know me no one want to find me or be my friend I'm so sad but I have to brake the chain that