this is not easey

hi every one who reading a lot in my life it hard it seems that i should be crying or be mad but god love me and we are in the same boat if u all did not know i was not here hafe the time i was sick sad lost even stop praying  life is not easy for me i use to not hang with a lot of friends because i don't like drama but im not ok with the fact that it has happen to me and it over done smashed like a bug and im free to be me i love scremo music and yes i do lesion to it  because it good for my life  I DOT LIKE HOW SOME OF U TALK CRAP A BOUT ME AND U KNOW WHO U ARE BANDS  and im sad to know that every one hate each other and not knowing god he said love one a nother as i have loved u now it bad crazy sad heart broken and yes i know thee still spirits around us no one seem to know but i do we have one in are house he/she nice never been mean i use to call her or him  bob or Jane and it sad to say this in few weeks are loving dog going down hill i use to wright every week now i dont because i got to fun things or i for get im sorry but my life not the way it use to be i was in love once and he gone got marred and has kids i never know if it was a good thing  but now we talk im not mad at him i had to let u go i never thougt u would go and screw me over but it ur lost  and i hope carma gose and slap u hard but im going to bed soon so i gess u heard me thanks