News I never thought this would be the day

For a long Time I thought I was an ugly girl because likely I had surgery got really hard lately because I have been hitting myself away from everybody and I apologize for that but since I’ve been so badly depressed because of this it’s not your fault sometimes people just don’t understand the meaning of real friendship until the moment somebody dies everybody’s like I will be OK you’ll be fine you’ll see them again this person has been gone since I turned 29 it’s been really hard everybody thinks it’s so easy but it’s not I’m still here wondering why did this happen to me who would die and leave somebody behind like that doesn’t make sense but now it does what are these days I’m gonna be gone on these days somebody will be asking about what happened to me how did it happen but that’s how hard it is to let go to somebody that you thought you know while I am there for you you know I’m not always going to be lonelyKnowing where I’m going to go next it’s gonna be hard for everybody I’ll be gone for another two months I have to have my other surgery I know I was like why are you leaving for two months because that’s how long my surgery Hass to be to be completely healed now allowed to eat stuffed are used to heck is hard I’m just hoping that something is right so anyways I got to get going love you guys